What is stopping me?

When I was young, I dreamed of being "someone" in the future. When I was young, I dreamed of owning a big house. How childish I was! When I was young, I promised to provide them all the creature comforts of home - that I am going to provide them EVERYTHING that they need.

Now, I am 27 years old and up to this very moment, I haven't done anything that I have promised. What happened? What stopped me? Or is there anything that is stopping me?

Honestly speaking, there were a lot of opportunities in the past that I actually ignored. I ignored all of them because of fear. I fear risk. I fear change. I fear of not being successful, What if I fail? What if i can't do it? Apparently, because of the fear that I felt, I wasted not only time but also my dream not just for me but also for my family.

Truth be told, no matter how much I convinced myself to be not afraid to take risks - I still fear it. I am still hesitant to accept it. I think it is high time to start asking myself, "until when will I fear to take a risk? How many more years will I waste? When will I fully accept it?"

So to answer the question, "What is stopping me?" Nothing and no one is stopping me. It is actually me who is stopping myself from believing who I can become. Anyway, it is never too late. I still have time. I will be that "someone" I promised myself to be. This would be the first and the last time that I will look back to those missed chances.

Picture taken at Itoshima, Japan 2016

“You cannot swim for new horizons until you have the courage to lose sight of the shore.” ― William Faulkner