What-could-have-been’s

This picture depicts what-could-have-been’s. If I could just turn back time to correct what I did, then it would have been harmonious. However, the impulsive, random and spontaneous side of me never fail to appear whenever I am in a high-stake situation. I am a risk taker at some points. I have always hated being in the middle, wherein I lose control of something, especially my emotion. Hence, it made me do something unimaginable.

A realization hit me after, once you are happy, everything turns out to be brighter and greater. A traffic on the road means more time for yourself before a dreadful work starts. A simple cup of coffee in the morning being held close to your nose with your two warm hands leads you to your dream vacation while its aroma smells like beach and waves. You find yourself laughing even over to petty things. Routine works become exciting as if you just learned doing it. “What a wonderful day it is!” Everything becomes surreal, serene and content.

I invite positivity every day to work with me and stay with me especially to the most boring part of the day - 3 pm because it makes me want to hibernate.

People’s gestures become something more or less. I always reject things that make me feel bad or upset because who has time for drama? I appreciate little concerns and thoughtful acts which unconsciously led me to what I did. Your curiosity is arising I am sure of that, but I’ll never tell you. This is just one of those random letters I wish he would read someday.

What could have happened if I didn’t do what I did? I would still be in the middle, still confused and bothered. Am I happy that I did it? I would love to say yes. After all, I am a risk taker.