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In my teenage years, my friends used to think that I was the strongest, emotionally. I liked the fact that they considered me as one. They compared me to a candle that would light them when no one could not. And I loved it. Who wouldn't? I was like the older sister to everyone. They knew who they can talk to. They knew who to cry to. They knew that in every situation, good or bad, I'll be there. Hence, they considered me as the strongest. However, human as we are, we face problems, we need friends, and we need someone to talk to.
There was a time in the past when I had to face one. And for me, it was serious (actually it wasn't, but i thought it was. Lol). I needed friends. I needed someone to talk to. I needed someone to run to. I contacted them but heard no response. I was disappointed. I was depressed. Then I made a decision to cut ties with them. Months later, we met. We talked. We tried to catch up. They asked me what happened. I told them what I felt and I told them I was disappointed because when I needed someone, I couldn't turn to anyone and I felt desperately alone.
They were surprised; they thought I was fine. They were thinking that I WAS THE STRONGEST PERSON THEY KNEW; so, I didn't need anybody.
They left me speechless. Then I thought to myself, perhaps, I positioned myself wrong. I couldn't blame them for thinking so. I didn't really show who I was and perhaps I pretended to be strong. I forgot that a strong person can feel weak, too.
Since then, I was more open. I started asking advice. I started being real. They saw me cry and they didn't judge me for that. They saw me weak and I didn't mind. What I want to say is, it is okay to be strong but it is okay to feel weak, too. A strong person doesn't need to be strong always.
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